Tuesday, March 31, 2009

Confessions of the soul

We all live life in many different styles. The way we dress,walk,eat,laugh,work etc... We are all different. Many people might consider me a loser,while others view me as simple and or High maintenance.

Myself I know I am a loser. As if that was a bad thing? I have lost a lot of things in life,not all of it was bad. I have gained a lot in life from what I have lost. Have I lost you yet? LOL

I have lost many a friend from moving on in life in different directions, from illness that took their life away a bit to soon. I have lost what I thought to be good friends to only find out they were maybe not true friends to begin with. "To have a friend, you must be a friend first" is my motto.

One of the biggest things I have lost in the past almost year is-
I have lost my ability to say "yes" to everything, I have lost my spontaneity to be able to just jump in the car with a moments notice and just go out to eat. Things that are so simple in some peoples world are no longer in mine, Yes, you see I am a loser!

Do I say this to drag myself down? To make people feel sorry for me? To shine a negative light around the world? HELL NO! I say all this because it is true!

When I say I am a loser it is because I have lost the desire to eat fast foods,lay around doing nothing,being sick all the time. Yes, I have taking control over my life and done something to change it
I am a loser- I have lost 94 pounds in 8 months, I have taken off 76.5 inches on my body. I have lost 20.5 sizes in clothing, I am a loser!!

Did it come to me easy? Hell no, It has been a lot of blood,sweat and tears. I have to work at it hard every day and I have to have a mind set of this is going to work. I have to be very mindful in all the foods I put in my mouth, I have to exercise to achieve my goals, I have to be honest in everything I do. It is so Physical,emotional and takes complete dedication!

I am for the first time in my life PROUD to be a LOSER! I have Self worth,Power,Drive,Confidence and Health!

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Saturday, March 28, 2009

Time to "Pond"er

Living in Fargo ND has brought many different things into my life. In the past 8 plus years, I have learned a lot, heard a lot and now I have seen a lot.
A lot of water that is! We are in bad shape here in Fargo. We have made National News,Obama has called our state offices,Hospitals,nursing homes,peoples home etc.. have been evacuated. We are in the midst of a huge flood. The river will crest on Sunday at a perdicted 43 feet. The record was 40 feet in 1997.
We have had people show up to sand bag from all over. People have drove 7,8,9 etc hours to help save our towns! It has been an unreal pouring amount of support from strangers. Our town people have pulled together and helped fight the fight. We are a strong group here that have the same belief. We like where we live and have it good. My thanks go out to those people who have helped,prayed and did what ever it is you do to send positive vibes to our end of the world.
This morning when I took the dog out,all I could hear outside was quiet. Maybe a robin or two singing a song.No traffic,I could hear the heavy equipment grinding away as they finish any last ditch efforts of a taller clay dike. It is kind of an erry sound to hear- nothing. Our normal sound of traffic is a sure missed sign.
We are still in our house,packing a small bag today in case the dikes break. Curt thinks we will have half hour tops to get out of town if that happens. The one positive thing that has happened (can't believe I am going to say this) is that we got more snow! this has cooled off the melting of snow and allowed more ice to form. Making it a slower process of the flood.Made it harder for sand baggers tho.
Will keep people posted as I know more information. The picture up top was taken yesterday of the river. See that light post/top,yeah weird huh? That part of the river is usually/normally about 23 feet LOWER! Curt was taking the pictures on the only bridge left open between Moorhead and Fargo.